After Severing Her Emotions, the Whole Sect Was Overwhelmed with Grief - Chapter 75:
Chapter 75: Sensing Something Strange About Ruan Xinyou
Su Yu had fallen asleep in the forest with his eyes closed. In his dreams, he saw little Bai Ying clinging to him as a child.
That soft, rice ball-like girl was just too adorable—Su Yu had always loved teasing her. Back then, he enjoyed taking her everywhere with him. He would proudly show her off to others, saying that this beautiful porcelain doll of a girl was his Junior Sister.
Since Bai Ying was the only girl in the sect, Su Yu had always treated her with extra patience—more so than any of his other junior brothers. Whenever he went on a journey, he would bring back special gifts just for Fifth Junior Sister.
He would go out of his way to make her smile.
The others in the sect weren’t bothered by his favoritism either. In fact, they treated Bai Ying even better than he did—especially Fourth Junior Brother, Yan Chilìng. Everyone knew what was in his heart.
Even Su Yu had believed that the two of them would end up together one day…
Those two were close from a young age. They always stirred up trouble in the spiritual beast garden he was in charge of. Bai Ying loved crafting artifacts, so Yan Chilìng would always target his spirit beasts—plucking feathers from spirit cranes one day, trying to saw off a spirit deer’s antlers the next.
Su Yu had always chased after them in anger—but it wasn’t real anger. He knew Bai Ying would craft something with those materials and give it back to them. She truly loved them all.
Those chaotic, lively days… were so good.
Even in his dream, Su Yu smiled.
But the dream shifted. Suddenly, he saw Junior Sister Ruan Xinyou being brought into the sect by their master.
After she arrived, everything seemed to change. He saw his dream self becoming more and more biased toward her. No matter what she did, he always believed she was right.
The Fifth Junior Sister he once adored slowly became someone he disliked.
He saw himself whipping Bai Ying’s arms with a cane—heavy, brutal strikes. He never thought it was wrong. He even thought she deserved it.
But now, Su Yu questioned it all. Was Junior Sister truly always right? He’d never tried to confirm any of it. He had just assumed everything was Bai Ying’s fault.
Even Fourth Junior Brother, who once loved Bai Ying so deeply, had started chasing after Ruan Xinyou and even striking Bai Ying. How could he raise his hand against the one he once cared for most?
The other disciples began to dislike Bai Ying too. Some even discussed expelling her from the sect. “One Junior Sister is enough,” they had said.
Su Yu trembled in his sleep. No! He didn’t want Bai Ying to be cast out!
But the dream changed again. This time, he saw their master actually expelling Bai Ying from the sect.
“No!!” Su Yu shouted at his master in the dream, pain tearing through his chest. It was a pain so real, it felt like something he had already experienced before.
He knelt and begged, “Master, please don’t drive Fifth Junior Sister away!”
But no matter what he did, he still saw their master cast Bai Ying out of the sect.
“No!”
His eyes flew open, and he gasped for air.
Beside him, Qin Zijin looked at him worriedly. “Senior Brother, are you alright?”
Su Yu stared at him blankly before realizing—it had only been a dream. He let out a deep breath.
“Thank goodness… it was just a dream…” he murmured.
“What did you dream about, Senior Brother?”
Su Yu smiled faintly and said, “I dreamed that Master drove Bai Ying out of the sect.”
He was still thinking—thank goodness, it was just a dream.
But then Qin Zijin said, “Bai Ying really did leave. But it wasn’t Master who drove her away—she left on her own.”
Su Yu’s face froze. The smile on his face slowly faded.
“Bai Ying… left?” he repeated blankly, as if he couldn’t comprehend the words.
“Yeah! Didn’t you see it yourself, Senior Brother? It’s already been a while. Why are you suddenly acting like you didn’t know? Were you dreaming too hard or something?”
Only now did Su Yu fully wake up. He really had been confused—he thought Bai Ying’s departure was part of his dream. He had even thought, how lucky, it wasn’t real.
But reality had given him a harsh slap.
It wasn’t a dream—it was real.
Bai Ying had truly left the sect. She wouldn’t come back.
Just earlier, she had even told him herself: “This is the last time I’ll call you Senior Brother. From now on, never again.”
Tears streamed from Su Yu’s eyes.
A deep, wrenching pain spread through his chest.
He had really lost his Fifth Junior Sister.
“Senior Brother, what’s wrong?” Qin Zijin looked at him anxiously. This was the first time he’d seen Su Yu cry. The man who always seemed calm and unshaken no matter what—was crying.
“Fifth Junior Sister…”
Hearing that name, Qin Zijin fell silent.
He sat beside Su Yu and pulled out a bottle of wine from his storage ring. He took a hard swig, then handed it to Su Yu.
Su Yu took it and drank heavily.
“Zijin, do you think I’m strange?” Su Yu asked. “I’ve always prided myself on being someone who seeks the truth. No matter what happens, I always get to the bottom of it. But when it came to Junior Sister, I had no principles at all. Like just now—she said Bai Ying did it, and I believed her right away. I even thought it was fine to punish Bai Ying, but not her.”
Su Yu hated himself. He chalked it up to favoritism. But even he knew… his bias had gone too far.
“She only joined our sect recently, but Bai Ying has been with us for years. Even emotionally, I should be closer to Bai Ying. So why… why did I become like this?”
He clenched his fist tightly, full of regret and guilt.
But just then, Qin Zijin quietly said, “Senior Brother… you feel that too? I’ll be honest with you—when Junior Sister pushed me toward that Black-Spotted Panther, I almost died. Anyone else who did that to me… I would’ve hated them forever. I might’ve even wanted to kill them.
“But afterward… I still defended her. I don’t even understand myself. Why did I protect her like that? I’ve always been someone who hates evil—but this time, it’s like I wasn’t in control of myself. Like I wasn’t even me.”
The two senior brothers furrowed their brows deeply.
Something was wrong.
Why had they been so unreasonably protective of Ruan Xinyou? Why had they lost all reason and principles whenever she was involved?
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